I Cried Today....

And the timing was way off...

well i didnt actuallly go into the boo hoo cant concentrate kinda cry..

but my eyes got real full with tears and that one hurt tear came out my right eye and went dramatically down my cheek...

All this happened while i was driving.. and dancing to the music on the radio..(yes i dance and drive @ the same time)

This wat happened...

so i was thinking to myself...

damn.. since i get up and go to school every morning on sundays @ 9am in the morining and i am totally not a morning person.. what the hell was stopping me from going to church? so i decided after this semester is over ima start goin back to church..

then..

i thought about keith..

and i thought about how close we were growing up in church and how much fun we used to have going to the youth church conferences out of state, and how we were the only two our age always at church almost every sunday..and how cool it would be to catch up with him since we grew up together..

and then i remembered he got killed last sept...

and then thats when the tear came... :-(

My friend keith..

i miss him..

and im really gona miss him once i start going back to church and not see him anymore...

the sad part is..

the last time i saw him in church was in a castket..(at his wake)

Losing a friend like that is a heartbreak that can never be fixed..

I jus hope i dont cry when i see his mom.. :-<

Ugghh...

I got more to pray on..